In this painting I was exploring obsession. I found it difficult to portray what I had explored in my research relating to obsession and infatuation. I wanted to reflect how obsession can manifest itself as insanity and was heavily inspired by Sophie Calle’s obsession with insecurity so when making the link between insanity and insecurity I thought of that inner voice of existential dread. So that is what this painting is. I thought about everyones inner most desires; to be accepted and loved? To be attractive? Successful? I wanted this piece to be the internal ramblings of a woman obsessed with failure and dissatisfaction with life.
In a lot of ways this piece is very personal as I had to draw from my own thoughts to inspire the text but one thing I have learnt from this project is in order to make good, meaningful art you have to also have some personal connection and interest in it.